Stop.

I love you,” you say,
and I know something’s
not quite right
because when you
speak tonight,
the words don’t
just tumble
from your mouth;
it feels like this time,
they’ve been
pushed off
the edge of
your tongue,
and they’re hanging on
for dear life.
See, usually, these words
leave me breathless,
but tonight it’s different
and I wonder
if I’ve been reckless
with my heart
and now I’m restless
because the words
I just heard,
they didn’t fall
effortlessly
from your lips,
the ones that
have kissed
my every scar
and loved
my every flaw.

These words?
You prised them
off your tongue,
like a stubborn
piece of gum
on the back of
one of your
favourite shoes,
and I wonder
whether tonight
I could lose

Everything.

And as much as I don’t
want it to be true,
I take one look at you
and the sadness
in your eyes,
and I realise
that tonight
won’t be like
every other night.

I watch as
your lips
begin to form
the next word.
And that’s when I wish
I could just run
in between your lips
and on your tongue
place a full stop
at the end of your
‘I love you’.
Because that is where
the sentence should end;
you should
just tell me
you love me
and that there is when
I need that full stop
because
I need you to stop
because
I don’t want us
to stop.

“I love you, but…”
Your next word
changes everything.
Like that last
vodka shot
on a night out
that takes you from
having fun
to passing out,
and before you
change everything
I need that
full stop.

“I love you, but I just…”
What about this is just?
There is nothing just
about you changing us
by misplacing
your full stop
so please,
just stop.

“I love you, but I just, kinda fooled around with someone else.”
I feel
my heart
stop.

“I told myself no, but…”
You told yourself no,
and see, right there
is where that
full stop goes
because how can you
want to put a
full stop
at the end of us,
at the end of my trust
just for one night of
of lust
with a girl
you’re never gonna
see again?

Please,
Just make it stop.

Just make it stop
and I’ll give you
all of my full stops,
and we’ll pretend
to be okay,
and I’ll spend
my days
talking in phrase
after phrase
after phrase,
sentences that
never stop,
because if I do that
maybe it will mean that
what we have
will
never
stop

I performed this piece at a spoken word/poetry open mic night called “Come Rhyme With Me”, hosted by two awesome poets, Dean Atta and Deanna Rodger. It was my first time EVER performing my poetry and I was crazy-nervous, but I ended up quite enjoying myself, so hope to give it a go again soon!

A Love Letter (Of Sorts)

I’m not saying
You’re my other
Half
And that wherever you tread
I’ll follow
That path.
I know we’re separate
Beings,
Two different entities,
But we’re
Bound
By the balance
Between our own energies.
Restoring one’s chaos
With the other’s composure.
Sharing secrets, and dreams,
Complete disclosure.
Know that I’ll be here
Through the good times
and the shit.
When life throws punches
Your way,
I’m cool to
Take a hit.
See it’s come to
This point where, I look
At your dreams,
And helping you get there
Is something that
Means
The world to me now,
‘cos to help you to be
The man that you want to,
Along the way,
Will better me.

And then, there we’ll be
The best versions of us,
All thanks to the day
We took a risk,
And decided to
Trust
In each other,
Once strangers,
Now partners-in-crime.
From acquaintances,
To best friends
And lovers,
In time.

This isn’t your usual
Love letter -
You see,
I’m not going to sit
And tell you
You’re what was missing
In me.
I don’t complete you,
Nor do you, me,
We’re not two halves of a whole,
None of that insanity.

But I’m drawn to
Your light;
It betters my life,
Betters my soul,
Hell, it even betters
The words I
Write.

Wednesday Wish List – Red, Red Wine, Stay Close To Me

ASOS Swing Dress with Jewelled Neck, £45
Valentino Rockstud Medium Leather Trapeze bag, £1,160
Kzeniya Assymetrical Clutch, £237.66
YSL Rouge Volupté in Rose in Tension, £24.00

Whether you call it oxblood, wine red, cranberry, berry red or burgundy, this shade is one that has been embraced by almost everyone I’ve seen in the past few months. Even though it’s been “on-trend” for a while now, I ALWAYS find myself eyeing products in this colour when I’m out and about. I love how it works for tops, bottoms, coats and accessories…I seriously cannot get enough of it!

I especially love the ASOS jewelled-neck dress above; I reckon it would make for a great Indian outfit if I combined it with some black leggings, a sheer black scarf (or dupatta), and the right sort of Indian jewellery! Nothing I love more than a versatile piece of clothing

Have you embraced the oxblood trend?

PS – This post has been brought to you by the song “Red Red Wine”, by UB40:

Wednesday Wish List – Need A Little Sunshine

Jamaica // Maiori, Italy
Cinque Terra, Italy // Sevilla, Spain

I don’t know if it’s because of my whole Vitamin D thing, or if I’m just genuinely bored of the current weather here in London, but I am practically gagging for there to be some sunshine in my life! Plus, ever since I came back from Singapore, I’ve been absolutely itching to go travelling again! Unfortunately, I have neither the funds nor the time to just hop on a flight to any of the above destinations, but they are all places I hope to one day travel to.

I’ve done a bit of travelling in my life so far, and I’m yet to find a place that I love as much as Rome…it’s just such an incredibly beautiful city!

What places are on your travel wish list? And what’s been your favourite holiday so far?

Side note: I didn’t open my planner at all today, and spent all day thinking it was Tuesday – hence the delayed post!

All images from Pinterest